@Wrecky suggested I open a thread here about relationships realizations and coming to terms with losing the love of your life. My fiance of 4 years passed of cancer about 2 years ago and most days are a struggle to not smother myself with a pillow. Im content in my life now just working and using my money to do whatever but I miss my companion and best friend. I fear I'll never love another the way I did her and the few relationships I have tried since I thought myself ready have proven that not everyone is as loving or caring as she was. In fact I dare say the new dating scene is rather childish and self-centered. Feel free to cry about whatever here.