I hate you. and i love you. [myFirst blog]

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  1. itsok

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    Today while i was on my computer i was alone,
    like every night,
    every night.

    I enjoyed a fit lifestyle, before. Gym 6 nights a week. And ah, like every day of my life, man, haha was fun and the hope of, you know, something-Different-Exciting-Wild, was there!

    And before THAT, i enjoyed being a kid. shit my underwear 6 nights a week, haha. And like every day of my life, boy, was fun and the hope of, you know, something new was there!

    [Switch/user2]
    *Plays flute, progressively

    [Switch/user3]
    *Cheers

    [Switch/user4]
    If you don't let go,
    you wont begin to live your own life.

    [Switch/admin]
    ...

    [Switch/user4]
    ..what is it user?

    [Switch/admin]
    ..I can't stand it. I just sit. Alone.

    I sit alone, in terror!
    i sit alone!

    The walls echo, thoughts!
    The master of pain takes over!

    I, I want to feel good about my self..
    I want to feel skinny..
    The fat kid in me never did!

    [Switch/???]
    remember your fat ass!
    when your mother walked out on you!
    HAHA FUCKING LOOSER.
    FEEL THE SHAME LOOSER.
    FAT BITCH.

    [Switch/user4]
    ..mike...?

    [Switch/admin]
    ..{Indistinguishable noise}...

    ..what do you want? Im trying to work this damn, thing..

    ..{Indistinguishable noise}...

    [Switch/user4]
    ..i want you to feel better. Move on. Your better than this.

    [Switch/admin]
    SHE...

    ..she, told me she loved me, haha. She said my 'nightmares' were 'crazy', user! She said, she would never leave me! She said she would never leave ME! My MOM, said she would never leave me. Im sad, mike, because i lost my birthday parties! Our, our, tv time with the wind at my back! A smile.. and a hug.. when we got home from school. A name to call too for.. help... i miss my mom..

    ..{Indistinguishable noise}...
    ..{rattling noise}...

    I hate you.

    [Switch/user4]
    ..And i love you.
     
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    Tonights been a long night.
    I think work is getting a little draining on me. Why do they have to get mad at me?
    Im only doing my job. I cant loose it, i need money. Why are they selfish. Asshole fucks. ****.
    Today was really really ****.

    After work i was pumped to just come home but i couldnt relax. I had to hear about everyones elses day.
    Their own personal beasts. thier gossip that feeds their voices.
    And their voices that feed their mind.

    Are they insane?
    Why are they fucking complaing when their the ones feeding the fucking system.

    Stop fucking complaining.
    You like it.

    im going to bed.
    i hate this bed.
     
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