About ten years ago, I met an amazing person on Nexopia that changed my life. Long, long story short.. I wasn't mature enough, or secure enough to handle what I found. I ruined it. With selfishness, and abuse. I went through something awful, and I didn't handle it well. I took it all out on them. It cost me that person, and the completely special connection we made. It killed me. I lost everything. Ten years later, many tears, many painful thoughts and memories later.. I came back to Nexopia, and rediscovered both of our accounts. Still had the same cheesy lines. Same band and song references. Seems like a lifetime ago. Thank you for helping me build those memories. Thank you for preserving what was good. The silver lining to social media, and always showing the best of times. It's a bit like a photo album. You're not supposed to hold on to pain, just lessons. I know she will never see this, and I hope she found happiness. I hope she forgot me and healed. For what its worth.. Jasmine, I miss you and Boomer more than anything in the world. When I die, it will be of you and him that I think of. The best things that ever happened to me. To everyone else, don't just buy into the hype. Really think hard about what you have, and how easy it would be to lose. Some mistakes cannot be undone. Randomness is essential.
I feel this hard. I found my old profile, and was flooded with memories and nostalgia. I remember the dumb mistakes I made as a teenager. I hope all of my old friends are doing well…
